hi tammy ,your not alone,even though it seems awkward dont let it bother ya once you get use to it,itll be like any other nite but with drier sheets in the morning,no laundry woohoo,ive benn in diapers for 6 yrs now do to a trucking accident its just part of getting dressed now there not as bad as they seem just a little different at first,maybe you can let him put a diaper on you once in a while,itll help relieve the tension if you mkae a little fun with it