Hi Jhon, Please don't worry about what other gril's think about you in diapers ok There the one how has the problem you don't there's a lot of people how understand and are willing to help you and i'm one of them so please don't kill your self John. I'm a long time bedwetter my self i know just how you feel about thinngs if you need a friend i'm here my E-Mail address is cute72450@yahoo.com Your Friend Tony