Hey- What I would do is let your mom change you because you're less likely to leak and cleaning up after is easier. Another thing- I wear diapers all day long to and I wear Luvs (the ones with Barney on them) so don't feel bad. I also go to an after school program with little kids who still wear diapers and I am changed with them up on a changing table. The bad part is, its right near the window that overlooks a busy street where lots of people walk by. Hope you get over this wetting and messing thing soon!